I stumbled across your writing on addiction and recovery years ago - thank you for all you have shared. Your story is raw, heartbreaking, and relatable but mostly a source of hope/inspiration. 10 years is fucking huge - congratulations!
Go Xanderman! Nice memoir... looking forward to reading the second part. There are some great lines in this piece:
-Imagine if a sex addict were only allowed hand jobs. Such was the hollow agony of its relief.
-There’s already a fire in you, she said. But you keep trying to light it with gasoline.
-I’d been racing toward like a maniac my whole life, another fucking startup gone, another comeback turned embarrassing failure, only there was no helpful country cop to buy me coffee this time, no money to call Kayvo, just me and this itchy ass rug and the truth that I was never going to stop, not like this, not on my own.
"... this looseness, this sense that the world was finally arranged correctly—was how things were supposed to feel... " My first experience EXACTLY (also freshman year). This piece is so f****** good! I bet you give a helluva lead. Thank you for this Alex. Among many other things it achieves, it lets us all know we aren't alone (AND we aren't unique). 05/24/09
Man all these stories moved something in me and I admire your courage to share all of this. I've also enjoyed the way you write — direct but soft on the edges. Thank you for this.
Epic, man. I haven't been this captivated by a piece of writing in some time. Just brilliant.
A major goal would be to write 7k words that captivate Daddy Brooks from start to finish!
Wow, it's hard to stop reading there.
More please. 💞🙏😊
I'm 2 years sober.
Congrats, Briana, on 2 years - so huge. Glad to be on the path with you
Thank you Alex, and likewise!!
Yes! I wanted to go straight into the next chapter
I stumbled across your writing on addiction and recovery years ago - thank you for all you have shared. Your story is raw, heartbreaking, and relatable but mostly a source of hope/inspiration. 10 years is fucking huge - congratulations!
Would love to read a memoir some day.
P.s. I’ll hit 8 months sober in t-minus 2 days ☺️
Go Xanderman! Nice memoir... looking forward to reading the second part. There are some great lines in this piece:
-Imagine if a sex addict were only allowed hand jobs. Such was the hollow agony of its relief.
-There’s already a fire in you, she said. But you keep trying to light it with gasoline.
-I’d been racing toward like a maniac my whole life, another fucking startup gone, another comeback turned embarrassing failure, only there was no helpful country cop to buy me coffee this time, no money to call Kayvo, just me and this itchy ass rug and the truth that I was never going to stop, not like this, not on my own.
Thank you so much, Danielle. And lol, I'm also quite found of the hollow agony one :)
“I would always be stealing from tomorrow to pay for tonight.”
Riveting read. This is tremendous writing. You capture it so well. The slow yet all of a sudden rapture of addiction.
Congrats on 10 years.
Ooooh: the slow yet all of sudden rapture... precisely. Thank you for reading, Allison, and for this.
Alex, you have many gifts, thanks for sharing your story. You have always carried a spark for learning.
Love to you and all those you love.💕
Thank you so much, Barbara, for reading, and your steadfast support. Love right back at you.
This is stunning, man. Beautifully done. Major, major congrats.
Thank you, deep bow my fellow Alex brother
"... this looseness, this sense that the world was finally arranged correctly—was how things were supposed to feel... " My first experience EXACTLY (also freshman year). This piece is so f****** good! I bet you give a helluva lead. Thank you for this Alex. Among many other things it achieves, it lets us all know we aren't alone (AND we aren't unique). 05/24/09
Ah, no way - they got us. But wait, is 5/24/09 your sobriety birthday?
We aren't alone nor unique, indeed. Thank you so much, Gina.
It is! Best day ever ❤️
You’re a wonderful storyteller. Thanks for sharing yours.
Thanks so much.
Wow. An astounding read.
Thanks so much, Neil.
Such an amazing piece, Alex! Well done and congrats on your 10 years of sobriety and here’s to 10 more!
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Hell yeah dude. So proud of you
<3
Congratulations man.
Thanks so much.
Man all these stories moved something in me and I admire your courage to share all of this. I've also enjoyed the way you write — direct but soft on the edges. Thank you for this.
Nik! Thanks so much, mate. Appreciate you reading.
Wow! I’ve heard many pieces of this story before but it’s so good to read it all at once in long form. Those numbers are grim!
And the ending just really nailed it. Gives me goosebumps and reminds me of 11 pm 11th of February 2022. Almost 4 years for me.
Congrats on reaching 10 and thanks again for using your story to inspire others. Big hugs
Haydn, I'm late here, but congrats on the Big 4! Insanely happy for you.
Beautiful writing. Well done, many thanks and more please!
Thank you, Piers!
That was really good. Congrats on ten years. What a thing, right?
What a wild, weird ass, beautiful thing, indeed. And thank you, Laura, I love your work.