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I look forward to seeing my great grandchildren when you are a grandfather. Love Pop.

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You will probably be the most active great-grandpop around man

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Congrats, Alex! Will there still be a memoir? 😇

I relate to your forgetfulness. I not only have limited recollection of my upbringing but also the memory of a fly in my day to day... nothing sticks. I've come to understand that as a product of my story, and medicines have fairly recently shown me that it could be something to work by teaching the parts of me that forget that it is now safe to remember.

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It's always interesting how the memories can come flooding back in a journey, or in my case, more commonly when receiving somatic therapy like Hakomi. It's kinda nice feeling like the past is wispy, so glad you can relate. And memoir... at some point in my life, absolutely. It might morph into a different book project in the medium term. But for now quite happy to have it paused. Thanks for asking tho :)

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Alex, Love that you can picture yourself being a grandfather 👴 a gift 🎁 of your belief in the future.❤️🙏❤️

Congrats on everything….. you always have had a special spark ⚡️

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Thank you so much, Barbara, and for reminding me about that spark... need to remember that at times <3

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I know what you mean man. You think back to that person, that you, and they are just sand falling through the hand. A beautiful thing. I trust more and more, anything we truly need to remember will find us in the now, in the renewal.

Thank you for sharing. Glad you're still with us.

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*This* poetry: I trust more and more, anything we truly need to remember will find us in the now, in the renewal.

Thank you dude

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This "my recovery is a bright and golden thing that can be pointed at but not truly known by anyone but me." is profound and wonderful. Fully appreciating our experience is ours alone and can only be that way. Thank you!

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That line more than any others has stuck with me, thank you Lori

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👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

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to happy destiny

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Nice... I too live Just For Today. I read something from Brianna Wiest that is fitting for the moment, " accomplishing goals is not success, how much you expand in the process is... "

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She's quite good on purpose and acceptance, I like that quote, thank you

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God I love tres leches! Grace sounds like a wonderful human. Congratulations on making 8 years, you are an inspiration to me in my recent journey towards a sober life.

I also used to view myself as one of the “live-fast-die-young” crowd, but have a newfound appreciation for longevity and a slow cultivation of a meaningful experience of life.

I think this is partially due to patience gained by the wisdom that comes with age. And perhaps also by the stillness found in sobriety that provides clarity on personal values and the fleeting nature of life itself.

We truly only have the present moment. I think you’re right, maybe my own half-baked-amnesia is the reason why I can resist rumination so much easier than my significant other 😅

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Tres leches is the ultimate. That live-fast-die-young life is sometimes a good phase to go through, especially if the dying doesn't happen, and if you were a hotheaded guy like me who needed to flush it out of his system. Thank you so much Kade, love these thoughtful notes

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so inspiring as always, alex. thanks for always sharing your light - and darkness - with us.

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Alex! Appreciate that so much. Love knowing you are also on the path

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HAPPY RECOVERYVERSARY ❤️‍🔥 just a beautiful reflection. And Grace always sounds like the absolute best

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Thank you ma girl

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Congratulations 🎉

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Thank you :)

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Amazing and well done Alex. My two year quietly passed just a couple of weeks after yours. DeepFix was especially helpful in the early days. Thank you for every word you’ve ever written on this topic. ❤️

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Congratulations, Alex.

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Congrats, Alex.

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You continue to be such a beautiful inspiration. “Ease full” - Love that.

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