Absolutely excellent piece! Don't we all experience this dilemma in our lives? Laura's comment about being "willing" is "firmly rooted in codependency" resonated deeply with me. After years of being married to a man who could be ruthlessly insensitive and even abusive at times, I was finally able to recognize that I desperately needed to…
Absolutely excellent piece! Don't we all experience this dilemma in our lives? Laura's comment about being "willing" is "firmly rooted in codependency" resonated deeply with me. After years of being married to a man who could be ruthlessly insensitive and even abusive at times, I was finally able to recognize that I desperately needed to be able to assert my myself. I could no longer feel safe with him continually saying he wanted to put me "six feet under"! I consulted with a lawyer about getting a divorce, because I wasn't sure if I even had a case! Even though I was not religious, having been raised Catholic I STILL felt guilty about entertaining the notion because, after all, marriage was for "until death do us part!" Besides, how could I deprive my three sons of their father? I had somehow allowed myself to believe that the marriage was failing because I did not love my husband enough. Even after meeting with the lawyer I was unable to take the first step. Ironically it was my BODY that communicated the urgent need for action! For about a month after the meeting, I experienced an unusual response to eating. I'd get intense stomach pains which, I discovered after a week, could only be relieved by vomiting. After a few weeks, I went to the doctor who could find nothing wrong with me. Desperate, I decided to try a Reiki practitioner recommended to me by a woman I'd met. Because I was still a bit skeptical of "new age" alternative practitioners, I intentionally did not relay what was ailing me. She directed me to lie face down on her table and after passing her hands over my back, asked me if I had been trying to empower myself. I was struck by the cogency of this question. She proceeded to do what seemed like hocus pocus, never even touching my body and I thought to myself I had just wasted $75! After the session I finally shared what my symptoms had been. She reassured me I could eat anything! I initially I didn't believe her, but she was right. The stomach troubles were over! Thinking back on her initial question, as well as realizing that my health issue revolved around my solar plexus, the chakra associated self-assertion and empowerment, I realized my body was communicating my resistance to its wisdom.
Wow, Larissa, thank you so much for sharing this. Appreciate you pointing out that it was your body that communicated the urgency, as the body always seems to carry that deeper intelligence. And what a testimonial for Reiki. That's wild. Do you still receive it?
Absolutely excellent piece! Don't we all experience this dilemma in our lives? Laura's comment about being "willing" is "firmly rooted in codependency" resonated deeply with me. After years of being married to a man who could be ruthlessly insensitive and even abusive at times, I was finally able to recognize that I desperately needed to be able to assert my myself. I could no longer feel safe with him continually saying he wanted to put me "six feet under"! I consulted with a lawyer about getting a divorce, because I wasn't sure if I even had a case! Even though I was not religious, having been raised Catholic I STILL felt guilty about entertaining the notion because, after all, marriage was for "until death do us part!" Besides, how could I deprive my three sons of their father? I had somehow allowed myself to believe that the marriage was failing because I did not love my husband enough. Even after meeting with the lawyer I was unable to take the first step. Ironically it was my BODY that communicated the urgent need for action! For about a month after the meeting, I experienced an unusual response to eating. I'd get intense stomach pains which, I discovered after a week, could only be relieved by vomiting. After a few weeks, I went to the doctor who could find nothing wrong with me. Desperate, I decided to try a Reiki practitioner recommended to me by a woman I'd met. Because I was still a bit skeptical of "new age" alternative practitioners, I intentionally did not relay what was ailing me. She directed me to lie face down on her table and after passing her hands over my back, asked me if I had been trying to empower myself. I was struck by the cogency of this question. She proceeded to do what seemed like hocus pocus, never even touching my body and I thought to myself I had just wasted $75! After the session I finally shared what my symptoms had been. She reassured me I could eat anything! I initially I didn't believe her, but she was right. The stomach troubles were over! Thinking back on her initial question, as well as realizing that my health issue revolved around my solar plexus, the chakra associated self-assertion and empowerment, I realized my body was communicating my resistance to its wisdom.
Wow, Larissa, thank you so much for sharing this. Appreciate you pointing out that it was your body that communicated the urgency, as the body always seems to carry that deeper intelligence. And what a testimonial for Reiki. That's wild. Do you still receive it?